cruel~

hi,, 

today I have meeting with them who join UOC(umatic outdoor challange) at Gunung Ledang. all the meeting is about UOC. wow, I feel like I'm not exist there coz I'm the one who don't go to UOC. you know what, they talk and talk about that like they going to get me jelous coz I don't go with them to UOC.Iknow that I should not jelous with them. but I feel like they're so cruel. they should not talk muck about there. I don't go to UOC coz my mum don't want me to go ok! not because I scary of high. at first, I feel exicted after they said to have a program name UOC. but after I talk to my mum and want her to give promison to go there, I feel so down,.I have to accept that coz pleased parents are pleased with Allah. but at least you have to honor others people feeling**

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what?? do I look wired to you? I'm asking you now..  I just feel like nobody even care about me. wow! that's great. oh,, ok. now I see that I just make things harder than before. I know there's nobody in this world want to be alone. include me. sorry, I thought that I'm going to be crazy. I don't know myself what I just writing. this show me that I'm going to be crazy. but I don't want to be crazy! huh,, that enough for today.. I think I need to rest myself. sometimes you need to pamper yourself. so that you can know about yourself more than anyone**

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what actually now I feel for you! I just don't know myself,, please.. I'm begging you to go away, far2 away from my life!! I just have to think rasional coz you not the one that 'halal' for me,, you... it hard to say something about my feeling to someone else.. please,, don't make myself confuse anymore.. it's hurt me a lot ok. but you need to know something that**

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fRuiT basKEt~

when I understand this song,, it's a sad song.. I mean it coz it's like my life.. I am lonely! but it's in the past. now I have friends that I can rely of.. I love you my 'chingu'! always,, you are in my memory**

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miSS yOu!!~

the truth is 'I REALLY MISS YOU',, I hope that I can tell you that words, but I don't know how to tell you that I miss you.. but I don't want to tell you either. it's just because I think if I tell you that words my feeling towards you become decrease.. it's different if we are married. but in the reality we not married yet! so it's better if I just kept my feeling towards you as a secret.. it enough just me and ALLAH know that I MISS YOU a LOT!! pogoshipo**

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